Elephant's message as she was on her way to the Great Spirit

During a mediation today this eye floated in front of me, I saw all these wrinkles around it and realized it was the eye of an elephant. A beautiful female elephant. Once I acknowledged her she showed me pictures of her and her herd, her mother was the matriarch, running through the dry Savannah, dirt swirling around their feet. She showed me her son, growing strong and her again pregnant. She showed me a great watering hole and many animals frequenting it. I told her to tell me her story and I let it flow through me. Here is her story:

There is something wrong with the water. It smells and tastes funny. Not so much that you couldn't drink it, but enough that you knew something was wrong. We had no choice on where to drink. the watering holes are becoming further and further away. Whenever you found water, you had to drink all you could before moving on. You didn't always know where the next hole of water would come from. My mother says something is wrong. You can smell it in the water, see the difference in the air. Timing is off too. Things that use to occur at a specific time are either late or early. She worries for the herd. The responsibility to keep us safe is great. In recent journeys we have seen so many animals dead, their bodies feeding the others. They were not old or very young, the ones looking healthy are dying. My mother blames the water which lays thick on the tongue and doesn't really quench the thirst. As the hole gets shallower the foul taste and smell gets worse. It takes a while to leave the trunk and it changes how food tastes.

I knew something was wrong, I no longer felt my baby move, couldn't feel the pulse of life within. The baby should have been born soon, I was slow and heavy. I got so tired and weak that I couldn't go on. My mother ranted and pushed me. The others gathered around, including my son, he would be leaving to join the males soon. I just couldn't go on. Too sick, too tired, and too thirsty. Much easier to release and return to the Great Spirit. 

I came to you, who could see and hear, to tell you something is wrong in the water.

I thanked her for the message and taking the time to come to me, as animals don't need help crossing. I told her I would get her message out. My last glimpse of her was her big, intelligent eye with a tear leaking out the corner.  

 

Crossing over a spirit from Zimbabwe

An African man from Zimbabwe came to see me today. He was 42 when died in 1959, he was shot by a poacher.  He worked on a small preserve. There was not much land nor money dedicated to it at this time. People didn't understand the need to protect the animals with ivory.  In some ways the preserve made those animals a target. It was easier for a poacher to come and kill an animal there then hunt them in the wild which was still allowed at the time.  

I don’t understand people; they would kill this beautiful majestic animal for ivory. I hear they make piano keys for the white men with them. How can a life be worth piano keys? I watched mothers being killed right in front of their babies. Do they think that the baby does not feel grief or pain? They do, I have seen it. I saw a baby elephant go off and die, not eating nor drinking. The rest of the herd surrounded him and tried to pick him up, give him love and support, it was not enough. He wanted his mother. 

Someone told me that they use tusks, especially rhino tusks to heal people. I find that funny. How can you heal someone with something that caused so much pain and loss? How can you ingest something that holds the energy of an animal that was slaughtered without a care just for its tusk? (I double checked that he used the word energy)  People don’t understand that if you are one with the earth and honor and respect her that you will be given all the energy and healing that you need to sustain you. When you take from her or misuse her; that is when you become sick in the mind and body. I know that more land has been given to keep the animals safe, it has not stopped the poachers though. They still kill and won’t stop until the last animal is gone. Though I get so angry at these men who would kill with such brutality, I am angrier at the ones buying these tusks. It matters not to me if they are for healing or a piano, it is a disgrace.  

When I died I didn't see a white light or tunnel. I just started walking and noticing that the animals could really see me, they noticed me more than when I was alive. It took me a while to realize that I was dead. These little people saw me living among the animals, not afraid of them, actually at home and they approached me.  I went with them and saw the work they were doing. They help the earth try to repair from the damage that man does to her every day. When I first joined them, they were a happy community, doing their work. They had family units and children. Now all that has changed, they are sick, children stopped being born and they are unable to keep up with the earth changes and everything is out of balance.  There is poison in everything from the water to the leaves on the trees. The rain holds these poisons and everything is affected by it.  The rainy season use to be such a blessing, now it just brings more problems; more that has to be corrected, more balance that has to be restored. However, without these rains there is no life at all.  The elves told me that all of life is connected; that what is done in one area will affect another on the other side of the world; that when a life is taken, it affects all.  Nothing is alone, it is like a spider walking on a web, it walks on one side and the other side of the web moves slightly. They told me that the biggest issue is that man does not seem to see their impact on others. They make up boarders and hoard resources to make money. They think that there will always be more, more food, more water, more animals, more land… well there is not. What they do on their piece of land another is doing in another spot. Even if a country acts in balance with nature, the clouds above them are from places where it is not. Their rain is poison too. None of this will change until man realizes that they are all connected and this earth is not just for them to take from.

When he finished telling me this and we went over it line by line to make sure I had heard him correctly, I asked if he was ready to go and he said yes. I thanked him for his message and time and showed him the bridge where he could cross. Just then at the top of the bridge as he started to cross came these big magnificent animals, an elephant adult and baby, a rhino and even a lion. I asked if he knew these animals and he said yes, the big elephant was one killed by poachers. I was surprised he could tell the difference and he said, don’t you see the difference in your dogs and cats. Each soul is different.  How right he is. He was overjoyed to see them again and crossed quickly.

Conversation with a water nymph

As above, so below

I had a conversation with a member of the elemental kingdom yesterday, a water nymph. She wanted me to share this message with you:

So many of you are upset about the pollution in your skies, your food, your water, and the wars that contaminate the land and sky. You have seen the changes in your health, especially your children. So many feel powerless to stop what is happening. Do you not see that this is exactly what you are doing to us?

To some a small pond is their entire world. It is where they are born, where they will die. It is also where they raise their children and go about their work on a daily basis. When the rain starts and the runoff from the fields and lawns come, they feel powerless to stop the onslaught of toxins. They watch their home become polluted, their health and their offspring's health deteriorate. They know that soon the changes in their home will be so great that the pond will no longer exist and they will die.

What humans don't realize is that the damage they do to us, they are also inflicting upon themselves. Whatever you do to us is mirrored in the world at large. If you want to change your world, you must change how you do things in your daily life. For you see if we all perish, so too do you.

Lessons learned while crossing over spirits, animals, and elementals

May 27, 2014

Today I had a spirit come to my home. He was very angry. He brought up my fearful thoughts about money. I was very uncomfortable. The next thing you know the kids are fighting over everything. I went upstairs angry at this spirit for not leaving when I asked and causing so much trouble.

I finally calmed my mind and decided to reason with him and opened my heart. It then hit me that underneath all that anger was FEAR. He was afraid to cross over, like so many religion had instilled great fear within him of the afterlife. When I responded with love and compassion, he calmed and his energy wasn't as uncomfortable. Finally I was able to get him to cross.

Look at all the emotions we have and underneath it all are just two emotions - LOVE & FEAR. The only thing to ease fear is love.

My prayer:
I ask that all fear I am holding be released easily into the earth to be transmuted to Love. That I be given the wisdom to approach everyone and all aspects of life with an open heart and fearless nature. That I always remember that when someone is acting in an ugly fashion, that it's just a cry for LOVE. So it is.

May 26, 2014

When you pass to the other side you are able to view your whole life and the infinite possible realities of decisions not taken. You are the only one to see what you did right or wrong. There is no one to judge you or condemn you. You are here to experience life, the good, the bad, the ugly for your soul growth. So go out, be bold, be fierce and open hearted. Make your life one that you will enjoy watching again in entirety. 

May 21, 2014

I was meditating when these two big yellow eyes appeared in my third eye. I soon realized it was a beautiful barn owl. I asked her if she had recently passed and she showed me her body lying in a field not far from a nest were two owlets were beginning their life. She then showed me a mouse running in a field, her swooping down and grabbing it. It wasn't long after she ate the mouse that she became ill and died. She showed me a barn and a human putting out green pellets in the shed/barn and the mouse eating it. I asked if she was worried for her offspring and she showed me her mate, doing his best to feed the little ones without mom's help, but she is worried that they too will be poisoned.

She then showed me a drop hitting water and the rings getting bigger and bigger the further out it went. She wants people to understand that EVERYTHING they do has an effect. That one small action ripples out affecting us all. With that she glided away, crossing, leaving me in awe that she honored me with her message.

We all need to be a little more conscious of what we do and the effects seen and unseen.

May 15, 2014

This earthbound spirit came to me, he was angry and his energy was intense. I was having a hard time getting a physical picture of him. He got mad and asked if I had a problem with black men. I just laughed and said "dude, energy has no race. It's color blind" - it calmed him down immensely.

May 1, 2014

This guy came to me wanting to be crossed over. He was so worried about what was on the other side of the bridge. He wanted me to tell him exactly where he was going and what would happen. I didn't know what to say, but out my mouth came the words: 

When you cross that veil, you will return to your true self. Once you realize who your true self is, you are home. It doesn't matter where your physical location is. 

Tears flowed down my face because I realized just how perfect and powerful those words are. Yes, I'm striving to go home and where the physical location is does not matter one bit. 


May 1, 2014

I find it interesting that when I help souls cross over the really dark ones don't seem to worry about their destination. Its almost as if they claimed the dark, knew its purpose and embraced it, just as some of us are embracing our light. Both served a purpose.



April 23, 2014

I have been working on crossing earth bound souls all day. They are being asked to leave earth in these moments because they are unable to raise their vibration to match the changes that the earth is making.

There are so many children needing help to cross over. It's hard to imagine that children could get stuck and not go to "the light" and to God when they pass. However, they tend to stay because they want to be near their grieving loved ones. They want to comfort them and are also scared to leave. However, time gets funny once you are earth bound and the next thing the kids know their parents have passed and they are wandering confused and lost. Often they find other earth bound spirits to stay with.

Parents please, if you have an ill child or a child that dies suddenly, give them one last gift. Tell them that you love them but want them to GO to God or source, to follow the light. Tell them that you will be sad and cry, but that you will be OK and it will make you happy for them to go. Tell them that you will be there with them soon when it is your time. Address their fears, let them know that you will take care of their siblings, their favorite pet, ease their minds. I'm sure saying this would feel like a lie as your heart is breaking, but they really need to know this. Release them. Release them back to God, we were only gifted with them for a short time anyway. 


April 20. 2014

This lady came to me in meditation, she had passed a long time ago. She wanted to cross over but was afraid that she would go to hell. This was the reason she didn't cross over when she died. The sad part was that she wasn't a bad person, her energy was kind, but terrified. She truly believed that she was going to hell.

I built her a bridge of light and opened the other side and her family came down. She didn't understand why her children were there and I explained that she had been stuck on earth for a while and her family had been waiting for her. (they had already passed) Even with this, she was so scared. I put my hands around her face and told her that God loves her, that all is always forgiven. Her family met her half way on the bridge and she started on the bridge. Once she met her family and felt their loving arms she turned to me and smiled. She was home, the fear was gone.

I wonder how many others are trapped on earth because of this deep seeded fear that religion has created. God is LOVE.

The Cosmic Battle of Good vs.Evil

When I started crossing sprits over I was so honored. It was an important job that helped people and let me be of service. I had been on the sidelines for so long. In my attempt to find balance with the near constant flow of souls a friend told me how I could cross over someone quickly and painlessly. This was used for those souls, who wouldn't leave, were befuddled in their mind, or were in your face angry types who wouldn't listen to reason or respect boundaries (like my home). Thankfully, these souls were very few and far between.

With this ability to cross unruly souls over quickly I started to ask my guides if I could cross dark spirits over quickly in the same fashion and got a yes that it was possible. From there, my mind (ego) took over and I just ran with it. I asked if me clearing portions as large as a state would be possible and to my delight I was told yes, it was very possible. I also learned that I could clear places where emotions resided such as hate, anger, and pain. Negative beings would feed on those emotions; the amount I could clear was amazing.  It wasn't long before my concrete mind wanted to quantify things. How many beings on earth are dark? How many could I clear with an hour’s worth of work? I felt like I was on a crusade, clearing the earth of dark beings and freeing earth and her people to a fast ascension.  It wasn't long, 24 hours in fact, before I started to attract dark beings to me. They wanted me to stop what I was doing and attacked. Most beings I would feel in my aura and clear, but there was a group that I could not. These were the Draconian’s.  They would come into my aura and mess with my chakras, shutting down my heart and solar plexus chakras. They would also create such pain in my back to the point that I felt like I was being punched. I went to my guides and demanded help. I got help. I was given crews of people who would help keep me remove these dark beings.  I asked if doing this was what my higher self-wanted and got a yes.  I assumed it was because it was what my higher-self did on a daily basis.

Soon the attacks were unrelenting. They were not only when I cleared areas of dark beings, but all the time. I was constantly checking my aura and chakras . It was really rough and painful but I had convinced myself that I had to save humanity, that my sacrifice was needed.  A friend who I had shared what was happening with said that she had always avoided negative beings by keeping her vibration up as lower negative beings cannot touch you if you vibrate higher than they do.  I told her that I had always held to that too, until recently. She also gently reminded me that I had free will and could back out of anything at any time.  I was vibrating lower and lower, in pain and really, really cranky. My youngest came into my room to ask a question and I just exploded on her. I was trying to keep these beings from hurting me and here she was asking for something. She looked at me and said “Mommy, you are scaring me”,   out of the mouth of babes. I sat back and thought – what the hell am I doing? I am trying to “save” the world but I am not even being a decent mom at the moment. How can I possibly help anyone when I can’t help myself?

At that moment, I made a decision – I was done. It wasn't my job to save anyone. The only person I can save is me, I can help people, shine a light in the dark, but that’s as far as it goes.  I went to take a bath to clear my aura and I went into meditation. I stood in an area and I was surrounded by all the beings that agreed to help me fight the dark. My guides, the angels, the crews and even my dad were there. I started by apologizing for failing them, for not being strong enough to continue this fight. I explained to them that I had to put myself and my family first.  My dad came up to me and held my hands and said “I am so proud of you” I asked him how he could be proud of me when I had failed so miserably. He then said “don’t you see, you passed the test”. I stood dumbfounded. Test? What test? I looked around at the beings that had helped me and I saw them all smiling. I asked my guide “is the test that I have to put myself first?”. He said that was part of it and reminded me of how I use to take in every animal I could because I had to save them. It didn't matter that it caused financial problems, I was doing important work. I thought I had healed that aspect of myself and in many ways I had. Yet when presented with the opportunity to save the world from darkness, that aspect of self kicked in again.  I was willing to sacrifice everything again to appease that side of me that wants to be a hero. With ego added to that it was a dangerous combination.

After absorbing this information, I looked again at all the beings assembled and saw in the back the Draconian beings standing there as well. I was immediately suspicious. Was this all a trick? But at that point I decided it didn't matter. I was out. I was putting myself first, this wasn't my fight. I asked my guide if all these beings were “in on it” together and he told me that I had created this scenario and all these beings agreed to participate in my creation.  I looked at him and said “Wait, I created this? This good and evil drama?” he said yes.  I then remembered Dolores Cannon whose books I had read and remember her clearly saying many times in her videos that she had NEVER met a bad or evil being. She was accessing information from above the drama on earth. It hit me and I looked around and said “Good and Evil is just another layer to the illusion!” I thought they were going to clap. It was in that moment that I realized that I had to come to this understanding that the illusion on earth is thick and has many layers. One of the layers is the battle of good vs. evil on earth that includes different races of alien beings.  I asked my guides if I had created all the beings I saw in front of me and was told “no, you only created the scenario, these beings helped you play it out with the hopes that you would see through the illusion and you have.”  My dad said again that he was proud of me for getting through this illusion so quickly and healing two aspects, my need to save others and seeing through the drama of good vs. evil as another layer to the illusion. 

Beyond the illusion there is no battle, only love. I thanked all the beings for taking time to help me with this valuable lesson. I was grateful. I asked my guide why I was told that my higher-self wanted me to do this work and he replied “she wanted you to go through this lesson, to continue on your path you had to see the layers of illusion and see how easy it is to be caught up in it. If you didn't see your way out, how can you possibly shine a light for others?” 

I then looked at him and said “I created this whole scenario?” he replied “yes, you did and others helped you play it out.” I absorbed this info and said “why would I create something so negative and terrible?” His reply was “Indeed, but now you know how powerful you are. Go create the life you want.” 

Henry - what he learned by being earthbound for 131 years

Henry came to me last night as I was getting ready for bed. I offered to cross him over quickly, but he said that he wanted to share with me what he had learned. I asked him to wait till the morning and he obliged by sitting in the corner of my room... Waiting. It is a testimate to how exhausted I was that I didn't ask him to give me space. At 4:30 in the morning, my eyes opened and I immediately felt his presence... Just waiting. I then began to listen to his story.

Henry died in 1883 of old age; he was very tall and thin. Impeccably dressed in a 3 piece suit complete with a pocket watch. He owned a small general store in a rural town. He never married or had children as he was homosexual in a world that would have shunned him at best. He did find a man to love and share his life with even if it was hidden, however, he died when he was in his early 40's. He was a lonly man.

When he died, he says that he didn't fear going to hell or vanishing into nothingness. If he knew of reincarnation he says he would have left. What he really wanted was a chance to explore the world. All he had seen was his small rural life, there had to be more to existence. The opening of light, the portal to the other side, only lasted a day. His decision was made. He's had other opportunities to cross over through the years but didn't want to take them. He's leaving now with the hopes of reincarnating back into the earth. I told him that once he returned to source the options he would have will astound him.

This is what Henry learned:

Humans are messy, nothing is neat. The range of emotions people feel is awe-inspiring. The love and amazement a couple feels when a child is born, the enthusiasm of a child running out the school door to recess, the confusion, anxiety and bliss of falling in love. Just the pure beauty in this world is enough to make you weep. I sat and watched a flower grow and bloom, proud, turned to the sun. I stayed until it withered and faded away, content with the knowledge that it was part of creation and others would bloom in it's place.

What I learned is that there is only love. I saw the most beautiful sites and the most horrific. The only thing that could heal the terrible things was love. The transformation it made in people was incredible.  When I witnessed those that came in to help teach lessons through their pain; I witnessed love in action. The child with the terminal illness who taught their parents the lesson of letting go. The ones killed in a shooting to teach that violence isn't the way. All the wars, disasters, and accidents were all lessons for us to learn, to grow, and to realize how far off course we have gone. This is especially true in this moment. Humans are being asked to return to love in all it's forms. What an amazing gift given by those who showed you what the lack of love creates. Those that died so we could look at the loss and see what needed changing. Isn't that the ultimate act of love?

He showed me the twin towers collapsing on 9/11. I told him that I felt it was caused by a power hungry group and not the country blamed. He agreed and said - now understand the love the ones who died felt for you. They wanted their death to show you what can happen when those with power steered away from love.  Nothing, absolutely nothing is more important than filling your heart completely with Love.

With that he told me he was ready to cross over. His lover that died so many years ago had come half way down the bridge of light and was excited to see his love and was waiting patiently for Henry to finish telling me his words of wisdom. He shook my hand, thanked me for my time and started on the bridge.

Energies bringing issues to the surface

Its Spring, a time for cleaning, de-cluttering, opening up the windows and airing out the stale air. This is true not only for our home but for what no longer serves our greatest joy. It's a time to examine our life, relationships, and purpose.  The energy flows that we are experiencing are intense, but they are helping us purge and get ready for the new life that spring brings. This is not an easy time for many; it can feel as if we are bouncing between bliss and misery with stops anywhere in between.  It's as if the universe is squeezing, pushing, pulling us to look at our lives and see what has worked and what has not. Even some things we thought we had healed and released are coming up for that one last look, one last examination. The universe’s way of saying "This is where you have been, you can keep this or move beyond it."  It's also a chance to offer gratitude before the final release with the realization that everything has helped you, even the painful parts to reach the place where you are today. 

For some these energies are just plain uncomfortable. We feel unsettled, stressed, unhappy, and anxious and we are searching for a cause. It is easy to blame the current events, relationships; finances, employment or whatever else it is that you feel is causing your unhappiness. These however are just symptoms of inner turmoil. This feeling can cause some to make drastic changes such as leaving relationships, moving, changing jobs and other major life decisions. Don't misunderstand me, change can be good and it is often needed for great growth. We just have to be careful that we are not RUNNING from the issues within. Once you get your inside in order, all the rest will fall into place or fall away.

If you are in a relationship and it is not going well and you leave without resolving the issues within yourself, chances are you will recreate the situation wherever or with whomever you run too.   If you are in a relationship that does not fulfill your needs, a change needs to be made.  You don't need to resolve the issues with that person if it leads to a never ending battle. Instead you need to resolve the issue within yourself figure out why you allowed yourself to be in that situation or treated a certain way. What lesson was there for you to learn? Once you heal that aspect of yourself, then you can move on. Often you may find that the situation resolves itself, maybe your mate changes as you do as their contract to show you a lesson is now complete. 

Another example is if your employer or coworker causes you problems, look and see where your responsibility in the situation lies. What part of you allowed yourself to be treated poorly or has your ego created a problem where there really wasn't one? Once you find that place of hurt and heal it completely, you will not recreate a similar situation in your life. . The change in your attitude, vibration and the signals you give off may be enough to create change around you, i.e. your coworker or boss being transferred or a new job falling into your lap. 

Once we take personal responsibility for all aspects of our life we are able to make incredible change and healing. We can then see where we contributed to a problem and make corrections. The ability to know that even if the world goes to hell in a hand basket, that we are in control of our reactions is freeing. No one can make us feel anything unless we allow it.  These energies pouring in from the sun, while uncomfortable or even painful, really are a blessing. They are magnifying those areas of our lives that we need to address and heal. Take a step back and really examine the cause of your unhappiness. Placing the blame on others only makes this change longer and more painful.

Understand that healing is a process, just because I came to the realization that I allowed a past employer bully me as I felt I deserved it didn't heal the part of me that created the original belief.  I had to go deeper through many layers of self to find where that belief started and rewrite it. Then I had to examine where I allowed my negative ego to create an even greater issue. The boss was a situation I allowed/created to show me the damaged aspect within.  It took many examinations of it to see my part completely. Be gentle with yourself and have patience; it is deep, intense work.

Once you heal the underlying issue and you feel the need to make a change, don't walk, RUN to what will bring you your highest joy, you've earned it after all that inner work. 

Much love to you!