Henry - what he learned by being earthbound for 131 years

Henry came to me last night as I was getting ready for bed. I offered to cross him over quickly, but he said that he wanted to share with me what he had learned. I asked him to wait till the morning and he obliged by sitting in the corner of my room... Waiting. It is a testimate to how exhausted I was that I didn't ask him to give me space. At 4:30 in the morning, my eyes opened and I immediately felt his presence... Just waiting. I then began to listen to his story.

Henry died in 1883 of old age; he was very tall and thin. Impeccably dressed in a 3 piece suit complete with a pocket watch. He owned a small general store in a rural town. He never married or had children as he was homosexual in a world that would have shunned him at best. He did find a man to love and share his life with even if it was hidden, however, he died when he was in his early 40's. He was a lonly man.

When he died, he says that he didn't fear going to hell or vanishing into nothingness. If he knew of reincarnation he says he would have left. What he really wanted was a chance to explore the world. All he had seen was his small rural life, there had to be more to existence. The opening of light, the portal to the other side, only lasted a day. His decision was made. He's had other opportunities to cross over through the years but didn't want to take them. He's leaving now with the hopes of reincarnating back into the earth. I told him that once he returned to source the options he would have will astound him.

This is what Henry learned:

Humans are messy, nothing is neat. The range of emotions people feel is awe-inspiring. The love and amazement a couple feels when a child is born, the enthusiasm of a child running out the school door to recess, the confusion, anxiety and bliss of falling in love. Just the pure beauty in this world is enough to make you weep. I sat and watched a flower grow and bloom, proud, turned to the sun. I stayed until it withered and faded away, content with the knowledge that it was part of creation and others would bloom in it's place.

What I learned is that there is only love. I saw the most beautiful sites and the most horrific. The only thing that could heal the terrible things was love. The transformation it made in people was incredible.  When I witnessed those that came in to help teach lessons through their pain; I witnessed love in action. The child with the terminal illness who taught their parents the lesson of letting go. The ones killed in a shooting to teach that violence isn't the way. All the wars, disasters, and accidents were all lessons for us to learn, to grow, and to realize how far off course we have gone. This is especially true in this moment. Humans are being asked to return to love in all it's forms. What an amazing gift given by those who showed you what the lack of love creates. Those that died so we could look at the loss and see what needed changing. Isn't that the ultimate act of love?

He showed me the twin towers collapsing on 9/11. I told him that I felt it was caused by a power hungry group and not the country blamed. He agreed and said - now understand the love the ones who died felt for you. They wanted their death to show you what can happen when those with power steered away from love.  Nothing, absolutely nothing is more important than filling your heart completely with Love.

With that he told me he was ready to cross over. His lover that died so many years ago had come half way down the bridge of light and was excited to see his love and was waiting patiently for Henry to finish telling me his words of wisdom. He shook my hand, thanked me for my time and started on the bridge.

Energies bringing issues to the surface

Its Spring, a time for cleaning, de-cluttering, opening up the windows and airing out the stale air. This is true not only for our home but for what no longer serves our greatest joy. It's a time to examine our life, relationships, and purpose.  The energy flows that we are experiencing are intense, but they are helping us purge and get ready for the new life that spring brings. This is not an easy time for many; it can feel as if we are bouncing between bliss and misery with stops anywhere in between.  It's as if the universe is squeezing, pushing, pulling us to look at our lives and see what has worked and what has not. Even some things we thought we had healed and released are coming up for that one last look, one last examination. The universe’s way of saying "This is where you have been, you can keep this or move beyond it."  It's also a chance to offer gratitude before the final release with the realization that everything has helped you, even the painful parts to reach the place where you are today. 

For some these energies are just plain uncomfortable. We feel unsettled, stressed, unhappy, and anxious and we are searching for a cause. It is easy to blame the current events, relationships; finances, employment or whatever else it is that you feel is causing your unhappiness. These however are just symptoms of inner turmoil. This feeling can cause some to make drastic changes such as leaving relationships, moving, changing jobs and other major life decisions. Don't misunderstand me, change can be good and it is often needed for great growth. We just have to be careful that we are not RUNNING from the issues within. Once you get your inside in order, all the rest will fall into place or fall away.

If you are in a relationship and it is not going well and you leave without resolving the issues within yourself, chances are you will recreate the situation wherever or with whomever you run too.   If you are in a relationship that does not fulfill your needs, a change needs to be made.  You don't need to resolve the issues with that person if it leads to a never ending battle. Instead you need to resolve the issue within yourself figure out why you allowed yourself to be in that situation or treated a certain way. What lesson was there for you to learn? Once you heal that aspect of yourself, then you can move on. Often you may find that the situation resolves itself, maybe your mate changes as you do as their contract to show you a lesson is now complete. 

Another example is if your employer or coworker causes you problems, look and see where your responsibility in the situation lies. What part of you allowed yourself to be treated poorly or has your ego created a problem where there really wasn't one? Once you find that place of hurt and heal it completely, you will not recreate a similar situation in your life. . The change in your attitude, vibration and the signals you give off may be enough to create change around you, i.e. your coworker or boss being transferred or a new job falling into your lap. 

Once we take personal responsibility for all aspects of our life we are able to make incredible change and healing. We can then see where we contributed to a problem and make corrections. The ability to know that even if the world goes to hell in a hand basket, that we are in control of our reactions is freeing. No one can make us feel anything unless we allow it.  These energies pouring in from the sun, while uncomfortable or even painful, really are a blessing. They are magnifying those areas of our lives that we need to address and heal. Take a step back and really examine the cause of your unhappiness. Placing the blame on others only makes this change longer and more painful.

Understand that healing is a process, just because I came to the realization that I allowed a past employer bully me as I felt I deserved it didn't heal the part of me that created the original belief.  I had to go deeper through many layers of self to find where that belief started and rewrite it. Then I had to examine where I allowed my negative ego to create an even greater issue. The boss was a situation I allowed/created to show me the damaged aspect within.  It took many examinations of it to see my part completely. Be gentle with yourself and have patience; it is deep, intense work.

Once you heal the underlying issue and you feel the need to make a change, don't walk, RUN to what will bring you your highest joy, you've earned it after all that inner work. 

Much love to you!

Tips to help manage the energy downloads

Many are feeling uncomfortable with the energies coming in. The heart chakra is being opened to allow more light to be held within your body. In order to hold more light, the heart has to be emptied of all the gunk it holds. 

If you are feeling triggered, emotional pain, anger, and sadness, even rage - it is a gift. It is showing you that there are things within that need to be healed and released. Often when we feel these extremely intense and difficult emotions, we take it out on others or ourselves (negative self-talk). This doesn't work because people will give that emotional pain right back to us, with an extra dose from their own negative ego or we push the emotions deeper within to be excavated at a later date.  If you've done this, it’s time to STOP. Don't feel bad for doing it, as we ALL have done this, now it’s time to try something different.  

Try these tips to transmute the energy you are feeling and get it out of your energy field. 

1. Be honest, what is really hurting within you. Say it out loud to the universe and tell it that you will heal this aspect of self. Intent is really important. 

2. Visualize breathing in beautiful golden light and exhaling dirty particles of negativity, pain, grief, anger. Do this until the knot in your chest subsides. 

3. If the weather allows, go outside and put your bare feet on the ground. Visualize your pain, past traumas, etc. going to the center of the earth to the core crystal, being changed and then that energy returning as pure unconditional love to you from the mother. 

4. Take a hot detox bath with 1/2 cup Epsom salt, 1/2 cup of baking soda. If you have crystals, add them. Good ones are quartz, amethyst, and rose quartz crystal. Soak at least 40 minutes. This helps detox your body and clean your aura.   I also add rose essential oil to the bath, the smell of rose helps raise your vibration. 

5. Write, write and write some more. Get all the emotions out no matter how ugly, raw, or painful. Get them out. Don't feel guilty if your thoughts are not nice, peaceful, or enlightened. We are all things, light and dark; honor them all as they helped to bring you to this point.  Some like to burn their writings while saying "I release these emotions, this pain from my body and mind. I send it to the universe to be transmuted into healing energy" 

6. Talk out loud to your angels, guides, and higher self. Tell them what you need and believe that they will help you through the process. They won't erase the work needing done, but they can help a lot.  I have found that if I have something going on that needs me to be 100% focused, like chaperoning a group of kindergartners at a museum, that I can ask for them to block me from downloads and energy blasts until I am back home.  Think of your guides, angels, and higher selves as a team. All are working with you and helping you to ascend. They don't know how things feel unless you tell them.  For example, if you have tones in your ears that are driving you crazy, ask them to turn down the volume. 

7. Watch your perception - are these energies a gift or a burden? If every time you feel an ascension symptom such as heart racing, cranial pressure, or exhaustion you see it as a curse, you are resisting the flow. Instead, try thinking of these symptoms as work being done to move you one step closer to your goal. Each energy download, solar flare and planet alignment is designed to help you move through this process. Imagine how a grape feels being made into vintage wine.

8. The most important step - be gentle with yourself. It is hard work getting deep into your hurt, examining it, and then pulling it apart piece by piece. Healing comes in layers so don't be surprised if you have to revisit issues many times to fully heal them. As your perception changes, you will be able to see things from different angles. Each angle needs acknowledgement and healing. 

Much love to you 

Cutting Cords, Agreements and Contracts as part of your Spiritual Practice

If there has been one spiritual practice that has helped me more than any other, it is cutting cords, agreements and contracts (aka vows), that no longer serve you. I do this weekly. Here is a brief explanation of what each means and how they affect our lives:

Cords 

We create cords with everyone with whom we have an emotional relationship with. These are our relationships with family, spouse, children, friends, teachers/students and employers/employees; the list of possibilities goes on and on. It is literally anyone that we felt a connection with for good or bad. That person on Facebook that un-friended you for your beliefs, there is absolutely a cord going from that person to you. When you are intimate with someone and love them, cords are created from each of your chakras to theirs. This is why when a relationship ends, your heart physically hurts. Cords were ripped out of your heart when that tie was severed. If you have intimate relations with someone who you do not love, cords are not created going from the chakra system, but chances are at least one cord is attached somewhere on you. 

Parents have many cords that go from themselves to their children. Many parents I talk to are flabbergasted when I suggest cutting cords from their children. The key is to cut those that NO LONGER serve you. All other cords will remain. When your child is born and you stare into that beautiful face, you create cords of love and security. These are beneficial to both parties, but the cords created with your newborn no longer serves your toddler. With your toddler you create cords of love, security but with an added twist of allowing them to explore their world. As your children age and become teenagers and young adults, cords can make this transition very hard. At this stage we want cords for love and security but with the added twist of allowing them to make mistakes and fail. Cutting non beneficial cords from my children has allowed me to step back and allow them to make mistakes, learn from them and rise above them. 

Agreements 

We make so many agreements and most the time we are not aware that we have made them; these are on a soul level. We could make an agreement with a loved one to treat us poorly, to constantly put us down so that we are forced to create our own self-worth. We could create an agreement with an employer to create such a horrible work environment that we feel forced to change jobs. That job change could be the absolute best thing for us and we would have missed the opportunity if we were comfortable in the last job. The problem with agreements is that they don't always end when the desired result is achieved. If the agreement with the boss remains intact, it could create similar problems at the next job. 

We all know people who seem to always find themselves in the same type of relationship; i.e. the person who always finds an abusive mate, the one who always finds the person with an addiction problem or is chronically cheated on in all their relationships. Even when the person finds the strength and courage to leave the relationship, the next one is just the same because of soul agreements not being ended. Agreements are in place to help us grown and learn a lesson. Once that lesson is learned they need to be cut so that you can put the situation behind you. However, if you move on from one situation to the next and have not learned the lesson, the agreement will not cut. These agreements are not in place to make our lives hell, but to teach us lessons about self and propel our soul growth. If you haven't learned or grown from the agreement it will still stand, as it still serves your highest good. 

Understand, that we are not powerless beings caught in the web of our souls master planning. We can also request that ALL agreements be cut, even the ones that we are still learning from. When we do this, we need to be prepared to make new agreements and have a clear vision of where we want our future to go. Without that vision, our world can become very unstable and chaotic. I suggest creating a clear, detailed vision of what you want your future to look like before cutting all agreements. Vision boards would help with this process.

Contracts

Contracts are life themes that we have chosen to learn in this time period. Maybe in this life you have chosen to be a healer but it is burning you out. It is time to create a new contract that suits your desires and soul growth. I learned of contracts when I spoke to a healer who told me I had taken a vow of poverty in this lifetime. My current life absolutely reflected that vow as I had gone through a bankruptcy and lost my home. Cutting that vow didn't make money fall from the sky, but after that for the first time in my life I feel that I have a handle on my finances. 

Some contracts can come from past lives as well. Since time does not exist and all is happening in the now, it is easy to see how a contract made in one life can affect them all.  I met someone who is a soldier in this lifetime who has had many past lives as a soldier or warrior. In many lives he left behind a woman and child due to his death. He has fears that he will repeat it in this lifetime. Cutting this contract would help to create a fresh start in this lifetime. It would give him the opportunity to move beyond the warrior theme. Another common contract is the vow of chastity. This does not mean that the person with this vow never has intimate relationships; it may mean that they do not last long. This can be seen in relationships where a couple has not had sexual relations in 20 years. It can also be seen in people who have a brief intimate relationship followed by long bouts of being alone. Evaluate your life, look at the overwhelming theme that keeps reappearing even when you change your circumstances. It could be that you have created a contract or vow in this life that has created these situations and a change is needed. 

How to cut Cords, Agreements, & Contracts:

Go to a place where you can be quiet and undisturbed.  Surround yourself in a beautiful golden bubble of angelic protection. Call on Archangel Michael and his sword to assist you in the cutting.  Some people can visualize him coming and cutting these things, some can't. It works either way. 

Say Aloud (your voice is your signature):

Archangel Michael, please assist me in cutting all cords, agreements, and contracts that no longer serve my highest good. I ask that these cords, agreements and contracts be cut in the past, present and future, across all timelines, all dimensions, and all parallel worlds. I cut all things that no longer serve me. I am free to make my own destiny. So be it.  Thank you, Archangel Michael in assisting me today. It is done.

I recommend not placing any boundaries on the cutting. If you add parameters such as: don't cut cords from my spouse or children, it hinders the process. Trust that when you say "cut those that no longer serve me" that the only changes made will be in your absolute highest good. 

Neutrality and Manifestation

I saw this amazing video today (link at the bottom, it’s a must watch!) of a pod of dolphins and a whale family that was filmed from the sky by a drone. The images it captured gave a view that most of us could never see without a costly helicopter ride and incredible luck of being at the right place and the right time.  It highlights the incredible potential that drones have to change the way that we view our world.  A friend of mine posted the video and questioned if we as a society are seeing more positive uses for drones in order to hide the more negative ones, like spying and bombing.  It was a good question so I started looking at our perception of things and what that means for the manifestation of our world. 

Everything has a good and bad side, everything. Even a ball point pen can be a useful writing instrument or it could be a weapon.  Drones are not good or bad. They just are, it is our perception that labels them one way or another. If I see an item as either good or bad, I am feeding into the duality of the matrix.  However, if I see them as both, as having the potential for good or evil, I am viewing them as neutral.  Neutrality is where manifestation lies.

Once you are at the place of neutrality – you then have a choice in how you wish to perceive something. You can choose to see a person, event, place, or item in a mostly negative light or you can frame your perception to be positive.

I wanted greater clarification, so I wrote with my higher self, what I learned I will use to help me manifest in all areas of my life.

When you see drones from a place of neutrality but choose to see the positive over the negative, you are manifesting a world where drones will be used for good the majority of the time. Since there is free will and humans are unpredictable, nothing will be perfect. However, if your thoughts are on the beneficial uses to the drone then 85% of the time they will be used for good in your reality.

If you then start to believe drones have a greater use as evil, the percentage changes, as you would have actually changed realities to one where the item is used for harm.  When your thoughts are mostly negative, you will be in a reality that mirrors those thoughts. As you choose to see the more positive aspects of life, you will move realities to reflect a more optimistic world.  You constantly shift realities based on your thoughts, feelings and actions. The universe responds to what you are sending out as it assumes it is the experience you must want, or else you would not be creating it.

This is how two people living in the same household can have very different views on things. They are literally in two different realities, each manifesting their thoughts and bringing to themselves confirmation of their beliefs. Look at your Facebook, when you are feeling unsure, unhappy or fearful do not others posts reflect these feelings as well?  This is why we urge you to remain positive, to have positive friends and to turn away from those who are wrapped in fear.  When a person is experiencing duality, good vs. evil, they are unable to create their own desires. Manifestation requires neutrality, the belief that everything in the universe can be both good and bad; it is our perception of it that makes it so. 

Dimensions & Levels within towards Enlightenment

As I have been going through the ascension process, I've spent a lot of time wondering if any of the physical symptoms, the constant clearing and reevaluating of self was doing anything to advance me on this journey.  So many times I felt stuck, lost, even in a void.  I wanted a guide book, step by step instructions on what was next. I asked one of my higher selves if there was a guidebook, received a yes answer but then heard a chuckle because it is in the language of light which I am unable to interpret yet. Who says God doesn't have a sense of humor.  I knew that I was processing, could feel light codes coming in, and could feel myself holding more light and changing, but I wanted concrete answers, something quantifiable.  When I tuned into these feelings, the pushes from solar flares, planet alignments and my own personal changes, I realized that there were levels and I was moving up that golden spiral one level at a time.

Each dimension we pass through has its own levels and each level is a lesson we must master before moving to the next one.  These lessons are different for every person as our needs and purpose are not the same. I began to be able to tell that I had moved to a new level when I experienced moments of incredible clarity, beauty, and insights. On the other hand, some levels triggered strong emotions and ego resurgence to show me areas I needed to work on. Some levels had events & themes in my life resurfacing for me to handle that last time.  Some even brought up deeply buried memories so that I could look at them with forgiveness and release to the universe. Each level I move into brings an increased sense of peace and allowing. The world around me hasn't changed so much, but my perception of it has.

Upon realizing that these intense emotions were lessons I had to go through it was much easier to return to center and find my inner peace. Some levels I have sailed through and others have brought me to my knees. I personally found Dimensions 4 & 5 to be the most difficult so far; they have the fewest lessons, but take the most time. It is in these realms that we awaken to truth and begin to control our egos.   It is where we take a look at our lives, patterns, and behaviors and make solid change.

Resisting made the process so much more difficult so I have begun to see each new lesson as a challenge and as a way to see exactly what I need to work on.  Now when I am at odds within myself I question:  Is my ego rising and causing me problems? Am I not allowing others to be where they are on their spiritual journey? Am I slipping back into fear and lack? Is that old life theme coming back to derail me, such as money, relationships, or health issues?  Have I stepped away from my heart center and acted without compassion and love?  By asking these questions I am able to dissect what is happening with me and return to that place of love, joy, and allowing. I now ask my Higher Self daily to see where I am in the process and have found that I am no longer anxious, I hope it does the same for you. 

Levels to Ascension also known as the Path to Enlightenment
Dimension	Levels	Hu level
3rd	17 levels	Hu 1 Holds the physical body
4th	19 levels	Hu 2 This level holds our soul identity. This is where we begin merging with our higher selves.
5th	27 levels
6th	28 levels
7th	29 levels	Hu 3 This level holds our Over Soul identity. We merge with this self as well.
8th	29 levels
9th	29 levels
10th	34 levels	Hu 4 This level is where we merge with our Avatar identity. The Sanskrit word avatar literally means “descent”. It refers to the descent of divinity from heaven to earth.  http://www.ananda.org/glossary/avatar/
11th	34 levels
12th	34 levels
13th	39 levels	Hu 5 This level is where we merge with our Rishi Identity.  A Rishi is a spiritual master who has mastered the Spiritual Sciences through long and persistent efforts.    http://www.vishwaamara.com/rishis-and-work/rishis-the-light-masters/
14th	39 levels
15th	39 levels

Stealing my own sense of peace

I allowed myself to be triggered yesterday and really fell into fear and saw the change in me from being heart centered to thought centered. This allowed me to see just how important it is to maintain my thoughts and vibration. 

I learned last night that Colorado has a 3 day eviction rule. Once a landlord posts the notice on your door to leave, you have 3 days until a sheriff is at your door. Normally this info, while shockingly harsh wouldn't have fazed me. However earlier in the day I read a post of Facebook about how the government will be shutting down in February to never reopen and all social security retirement and disability payments will be cancelled. When I first read the post, I didn't think anything of it and scrolled right on past.... little did I realize it was doing its damage in my subconscious the whole time.  The moment I heard about the 3 day eviction process my brain went to - oh crap, you use your disability to pay rent! What if the government shuts down and you don't have that money anymore?

At first I thought I could contain the "What if?" thoughts, however as I was making dinner they kept flying through my mind. Within 30 minutes I was grumpy as a bear. Within 45 minutes I was so anxious and uncomfortable I started releasing it onto others. Next thing you know, I'm yelling at one kid because she was stalling before bed and yelling at another child for taking a 20 minute scalding hot shower. Didn't she know that it is dollars down the drain and we are on the verge of financial collapse, eviction, and homelessness? My husband just looked at me and said "this isn't like you; you are so angry and yelling at everyone." His calm response stopped me in my tracks. What was I doing? Why was I allowing thoughts to come into my mind that caused such deep fear? Why was I stealing my own sense of peace?

I went to take a bath to cleanse my aura and clear my head. Epsom salt, crystals, and rose essential oil always does the trick for me. As I lay in the bath, I realized that the moment I let fear and lack into my thoughts I switched from being a heart centered being to a thought/ego centered one. In that place, I was taking all my frustration and fear out on my family allowing my shadow side to come out and play. 

Today I am thinking of how I allowed myself to be triggered and decided that I need to be in control of my environment and the thoughts I entertain. Anything less comes at too great a price, my internal peace and happiness. In conversations with my higher self, it was suggested that I limit my exposure to the fear propaganda. Fear lowers our vibration and since we create our version of reality via our thoughts, I need to be conscious of what I am creating. 

I don't watch news or much TV at all anymore. So little is entertaining and so much of the programming keeps us locked into fear, celebrity worship, and drama. I stopped reading the fear articles online and watching the video on YouTube that scream of the latest horrible thing getting ready to happen. I believe that that the creators of the videos feel that they are doing a service by awakening others. I was one of those people to scream from the roof tops all the injustices and plots taken place, begging people to wake up. I now realize that these tactics empower no one and instead causes people to shut down and be fearful. It literally takes us from our heart space. What I didn't do was manage my Facebook news feed. I didn't want to delete anyone because I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. (Really? That again? Putting someone else's needs in front of my own. Ah, I'm such a work in progress.) I thought I could scroll through the news feed and just ignore those posts and not be triggered by them. Lesson learned. 

To get back to that place of inner peace and a wide open heart I just have to remind myself over and over again:

You are safe, whole, perfect and loved in the eyes of God. You are protected and eternal.